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Future has come, but I didn't invite it... | |||
Loser I am. I went to ONI rules 1st video and wrote rude words. Words full of arrogancy, egoism. | |||
But that was not ME. It was HIM. | |||
I exist. I am who I am, guy who tries to achieve something. But I have also HIM inside me. HE is egoistic. HE is arrogant. HE likes porn. HE swears. HE envies. And HE acts as HE is me. | |||
NO!!! HE is not ME, HE only uses my body, so I feel guilty and HE laughs when I cry after I commit sin. HE was the one who wrote those egoistic envious words on ONIrules video, not ME!!! But HE is using my hands, my body, my brain....so everybody looks and tells it is ME. | |||
It is awful. Consciousness is working, but suddenly it is NOT MY consciousness, I can feel HIM slowly taking control. I FEEL it, I REJECT it, I FIGHT it, I don't want to fap, I don't want to laugh while somebody suffers, I don't want to envy, I don't want to swear, but I am weak, I lose and HE will do his work, then leave me as winner, saying "Next time, don't even try to resist. You are weak. You know you WILL do it, sooner or later." | |||
Hence I am loser. The one who repeatedly loses his fight with HIM. That is origin of my nickname. Now it is ME who is writing. ONIrules, I apologize for HIM. If somebody thinks I am attention whore, then it is his opinion. Maybe yes. But I can feel HIM for sure. HE is making preparations for next morning, he wants me watching porn. I DON'T WANT TO! HELP ME!!!! TEAR HIM AWAY! But you cannot, and he knows it, because the only one who can tear him away is Almighty God. But that needs ME to co-op. But I lose and lose and lose and lose.... and I don't give up! FAITH, HOPE & LOVE is the key! I know. | |||
So ONIrules and all dear ONI modders, when you see me writing some way too sharp comments, some egoistic, envious or weird notes, just send me away or write that it WAS rude. Chance is that 90% it was HIM, not ME. I can write something a bit sharper, but I can declare logic reasons for it. HE cannot. HE can only offend. Sometimes quite sophistically, but still HE is not writing about problem, but about person, HE tries to insult the person instead of talking to subject of discussion. | |||
Geyser knows (maybe). | |||
ONIrules, gomenasai. | |||
--[[User:Loser|Loser]] 22:19, 7 August 2008 (CEST) | |||
Revision as of 20:19, 7 August 2008
Future has come, but I didn't invite it...
Loser I am. I went to ONI rules 1st video and wrote rude words. Words full of arrogancy, egoism.
But that was not ME. It was HIM.
I exist. I am who I am, guy who tries to achieve something. But I have also HIM inside me. HE is egoistic. HE is arrogant. HE likes porn. HE swears. HE envies. And HE acts as HE is me.
NO!!! HE is not ME, HE only uses my body, so I feel guilty and HE laughs when I cry after I commit sin. HE was the one who wrote those egoistic envious words on ONIrules video, not ME!!! But HE is using my hands, my body, my brain....so everybody looks and tells it is ME.
It is awful. Consciousness is working, but suddenly it is NOT MY consciousness, I can feel HIM slowly taking control. I FEEL it, I REJECT it, I FIGHT it, I don't want to fap, I don't want to laugh while somebody suffers, I don't want to envy, I don't want to swear, but I am weak, I lose and HE will do his work, then leave me as winner, saying "Next time, don't even try to resist. You are weak. You know you WILL do it, sooner or later."
Hence I am loser. The one who repeatedly loses his fight with HIM. That is origin of my nickname. Now it is ME who is writing. ONIrules, I apologize for HIM. If somebody thinks I am attention whore, then it is his opinion. Maybe yes. But I can feel HIM for sure. HE is making preparations for next morning, he wants me watching porn. I DON'T WANT TO! HELP ME!!!! TEAR HIM AWAY! But you cannot, and he knows it, because the only one who can tear him away is Almighty God. But that needs ME to co-op. But I lose and lose and lose and lose.... and I don't give up! FAITH, HOPE & LOVE is the key! I know.
So ONIrules and all dear ONI modders, when you see me writing some way too sharp comments, some egoistic, envious or weird notes, just send me away or write that it WAS rude. Chance is that 90% it was HIM, not ME. I can write something a bit sharper, but I can declare logic reasons for it. HE cannot. HE can only offend. Sometimes quite sophistically, but still HE is not writing about problem, but about person, HE tries to insult the person instead of talking to subject of discussion.
Geyser knows (maybe).
ONIrules, gomenasai.
--Loser 22:19, 7 August 2008 (CEST)